Hitting Bottom

Believe it or not, I am hopeful that I have now hit bottom in my weight gain.  I am not near to gaining back all that I lost but it is enough that I can remember how miserable I was.  This is what depression can do.  I took the picture of the raspberries as they looked so pretty in the bowl and they are a good contrast to my food of shame picture.  It's Monday and I'm starting fresh. Again.  Lean protein, fresh fruit and lots of veg and some exercise.  My brother, (who needs to lose some weight and won't eat a vegetable unless it is coated in batter and deep-fried) has agreed that he will eat a diet that I compose for him for one week.  This will take place in a few weeks and we will see how it goes.  

More Food of Shame

Look at this plate of food.  It is a perfect example of what is wrong with my pattern of eating.  I start off ok with the lean protein but then I ruin it with that little bit of heaven known as the chocolate eclair!  It leaped onto my plate at the buffet before I could stop it.  One of my sisters takes a picture of interesting vacation meals.  This isn't interesting so I am going to file this plate under "Food of Shame."

Helpless

I have been depressed.  In March, I was laid off from my job due to a restructuring... so for the first time since I was 16 years old, I am out of work.  As I am an older member of the workforce, I am in a pickle.  Depression leads to eating too much and so I am in danger of undoing all the good I did in the past few years. I am helpless against the draw of over eating. I have to get a hold of myself and get back on track.  And of course I have to find a job.  I could take this opportunity to do something I've always wanted to do which is write a romance.   Maybe I will!

Viva Las Vegas...Not!

I've just returned from a few days in Las Vegas. Completely out of control eating. I'm in California right now and doing better, mostly because I am not in the constant company of forbidden food. I'll be going home in a few days and once again hope to begin again. I have a lot of time on my hands at the moment as I am currently not working, so I should have time to concentrate on my health. Let's hope so.