Last Day with Carbs

Another month of self-loathing. Yesterday was my birthday and I feel like shit. My feet are sore so I did not want to go anywhere for dinner. Instead I had my husband go out for fish and chips. I told him I didn't want them any more after yesterday. Today is family birthday day at my Dad's. We will have mine, both my sisters and my sister in law's birthday today. This is good because I will not be presented with an opportunity for cake for awhile. This is it. I will be on a diet tomorrow and I will not stop. As the feet are still an issue, I will have to find another way to exercise.

In Control? BS!

I have not been in control. I was but I wavered. We are coming up to the birthday season in my family which is never a good time for control but I have to be strong. The feet are still an issue but have been a bit better with the night splints...at least until I start walking around for any length of time.

I am re-reading The Thin Commandments by Stephen Gullo. It is good. I also have the audio version on my iPod so I can listen to him as well. What I need is for someone to follow me around and smack bad food out of my hands! From the ages 16 to 20, I worked after school for Laura Secord. One of my gigs was in their bakery outlet where I was with a bunch of wonderful senior ladies. I had so much fun with them especially my boss Mrs. Roberts. She was lovely and hilarious. If she thought I (or any of the other ladies) had had enough sweets, she would go so far as to wrestle it out of our hands. Some days we laughed so much our sides were aching. I need a Mrs. Roberts now.

Cashews

Some wag at the office brought in chocolates today. I managed to resist them but later I went for a walk and bought some cashews. I didn't eat too many but probably more than I should have. Since I have been walking more and I am overweight, I have developed plantar fasciitis in both feet although one foot is worse than the other. It puts a crimp in my exercising.

In Control

My diet resolve can be summed up with the mantra "I am in control." And I am. I am the only one who controls what I eat. I am trying Lean for Life again so I am on the initial 3 protein days. I am doing ok and every time I want to eat off plan, I just tell myself again that I am in control.

I have been having some foot problems which are probably plantar fasciitis. It interferes with the exercise. I'll try to do better with the posting.

It's Been Rough

I have a had a few days of not feeling so hot. Even though I am exercising and eating healthy (probably not enough food though) and I have not lost any more weight. I bought a digital body fat scale and it was heartbreaking. I went to the Dr today and had the blood tests done for thyroid dysfunction. We will see. The treadmill should arrive tomorrow and maybe with a way to exercise in the house watching whatever I want, I will be able to beat some of this lard off myself. I had to buy new pants the other day as the other ones were just too uncomfortable. We had another big snow today...I think that should be it for this season. Please.

Treadmill

I bought a treadmill. It has not arrived yet but it has been purchased and I expect its delivery in a few days. I have been using a Gazelle which really is not great for cardio workouts. It is fun and non-impact but it is really hard to get your heart rate up. Sorry Tony! I also have a very good recumbent cycle but my arse gets numb when I am on it for more than 15 minutes. I am going to try to find padded bike shorts and see if that helps. In the winter it is difficult to walk in Toronto because it seems like my husband is the only guy in the city who regularly clears and salts the sidewalk. I hope the treadmill works for me. I guess it will if I am committed to it.

Good Intentions

I awoke with a headache at around 3:00 a.m. This is, I am sure, due to the fact that I had a diet coke on the weekend after giving it up (other than the odd swig) in December. I had gone to bed with good intentions but the headache has caused me to divert. I have everything I need at work for a diet breakfast and lunch, but as soon as I got off the elevator in the mall, which very conveniently or very cunningly, lets you out right in front of McDonalds, I decided I was getting a McMuffin. All is not lost, I can get back on the wagon for the rest of the day. I am also having a very small coffee to try to alleviate the caffeine headache.

Hey I bought a netbook. I love gadgets and gizmos and I thought it would be handy for travel. It hasn't arrived yet and I am kinda anxious for it.