Ok, I weighed myself, not as bad as I thought it would be. But still not great. I gained back 20 pounds last year. I thought it would be a lot more. It certainly feels like a lot more. I need to get rid of that 20 to get back to where I was and then continue to get healthy from there.
What got me here? Depression, which lead to inertia. A circle that needs to be broken.
I'm eating better this week. I haven't had any candy or baked goods. I already feel less splodgy. So that's good and I feel optimistic.
I'm applying for another job today. It's always causes me anxiety as my fear of rejection is so keen. And let's face it, my fear this past 9 months has been justified. I'm lucky though that my financial situation is not desperate. I could retire if I wanted, but I'm not ready yet. I liked being out in the world. I liked being downtown. Three of my old school chums are now retired and believe me, it's tempting. The difference is that they chose their retirement time whereas I had mine thrust upon me.
I'm a good fit for this job. I have the experience and the knowledge and I'm willing to take a pay cut! Keep your fingers crossed for me.
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